Wednesday, September 19, 2012
A couple of days ago I had a few minutes of down time and didn't feel like doing anything productive with them, (much like the current moment!) so I decided to leaf idly through the pages of a devotional book I had received about two years ago. It's a book about motherhood, and while it is very cutesy I've never had the urge to read it through it. Anyway, as I haphazardly flipped through the pages looking for little quotes to pop out at me, I discovered a challenge in the book to journal twelve things I like about myself and then offer a prayer of thanksgiving for those things (and other good things I've received.) I closed the book without giving much thought to the challenge right away. But over these 48 hours or so it has kept sneaking into my brain.
I like myself. I don't think that is much of a secret. I have no problem sharing my opinions and I am pretty open about my faults and acheivements with whoever chooses to listen. But when you have to get specific, liking yourself gets a lot more difficult. (The list I will share will probably take you about five minutes to read, but it took me much, MUCH longer to compose it.)
I was a little iffy about posting this "why I love me and am so awesome" blog, because blogs are narcissistic enough to begin with. But I chose to share mine today in order to challenge you to do the same thing. Because every now and again, there is nothing wrong with being proud of yourself. Lord knows we all give ourselves mental butt whoopings enough to earn the occasional mental high five!
1. I am a good friend. I strive to be a friend I would like to have, and because of this, I feel like I have wound up with some pretty good ones in return.
2. I have a good sense of humor--one that has helped me laugh through hard times and inspite of them. And more importantly, my sense of humor makes happy times even more joyful.
3. I am intelligent. I am proud of the good sense God has given me, even if I don't always use it. I am happy that I have a mind that can question and challenge and solve.
4. I am talented. I write, I cook, I sing, I dance, I craft, I run...I should have my own reality show...just kidding ;) I may not be the best in any given area but I don't suck at any of them either. It is much more fun to do things when you don't suck at them.
5. I am a good mom. Every parent makes his/her share of mistakes, but if your children look at you and know without a doubt that you love them, you must be doing something right.
6. I am a good wife. And though I often drive my husband completely crazy, as wives are apt to do, I am pretty sure he would vouch for me. :)
7. I am a good gift-giver. This kind of goes hand in hand with being a good friend. If you listen closely enough to another person, you can anticipate his/her wants and needs. (Exception: my husband's first anniversary gift. You will have to ask HIM if you want to find out about that one!)
8. I am driven. I have acheived a lot of things and am not done yet. Have you not seen my resolutions list?! I am on the never-ending quest for self-improvement, and I believe growing in little and big ways helps to get you there.
9. I am resilient. Sometimes on the road to self-improvement, I've hit a few bumps. Other times, complete dead ends. But I have overcome many obstacles and have bounced back from some pretty big blows.
10. I am honest. Sometimes to a fault...but I am happy to be a person who is an open book and someone who "what you see is what you get." Sometimes I might read as pretentious, but it is only because you are intimidated by my awesomeness! (Haha! See, this is why 'I love me blogs' are dangerous!)
11. I am loving. And to know me is to love me back.
12. I am imperfect. Which means I have room to improve in all of the areas that I already like myself for--and then some.
Lord, thank you for my gray hairs
That pop up once in a while
They mark my days of blessings
And sophisticate my style.
Lord, thank you for my crooked teeth
Which help to justify
My daily coffee habit
And my love for good red wine.
Lord, thank you for my sweaty hands
Because as I have come to find
The people who love me the most
Hold tightly and don't mind.
Lord, thank you for my scars
And markings on my skin
Which remind me of my battles won
And of healing from within.
Lord, thank you for my children
Who fight, and yell, and scream
For as I grow my little ones
They're surely growing me.
Lord, thank you for my daughter
Who came to us by surprise
And has shown me what true sacrifice
And love mean through Your eyes.
Lord, thank you for my son--
My stubborn, headstrong boy--
Who even in frustration
Fills my heart with so much joy.
Lord, thank you for my husband
And for letting fools rush in
For in a time of recklessness
I found my truest friend.
Lord, thank you for the interviews
That didn't turn out right.
They've let me re-evaluate
And have shown me where to fight.
Lord, thank you for allowing me
To make my own mistakes.
Because clearly all the falling down
A stronger person makes.